Absent

I was a freshman in high school when I found out. My dad picked me up from school to go to my ortho appointment. He was acting very funny to me and I didn’t understand why until after. We went to my grandparent’s house after to get my grandma’s address book. At the time, both of my grandparents were in Arizona visiting family. Then while we were there, it happened. I have only seen my dad cry once before this, telling me how proud he was of me. This time was very different. He sat at the end of my grandparent’s bed that used to be shared by two people. I went to him as he wept and he told me as I stood there. Tears did not fill my eyes, they were nonexistent. A heart had stopped beating. There was nothing there only a weeping father and a daughter trying to comfort him of an absent husband, father and grandfather.

In Matthew 27:46, Jesus says, “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?” Just like anyone, if a parent turned their back on their own child, they too would feel abandoned. There is an absent part of him that is meant to stay with us and the other is to go up to heaven. It there is part of him missing to us.

When I am at school, I feel a bitterness of being lonely. I am no longer with the person that I fell in love with. That was my choosing to do that, but now there is nothing for me other than being lonely. There is no one that I can talk to about my day, laugh with or even cuddle with. There is just me and lonely. Maybe Lonely is a person, just giving me the company that I need. He or she would knock on the door, and I will greet them there just before they start knocking on the door. There I am able to have someone to talk to about a stressful day. I do have a lot of friends that I can turn too but they can’t fill in that spot in my heart that is missing. There is just that one person that is missing in my life that I have not found yet.

Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, is one all-time favorite movie. I love it that Ferris gets away with so much throughout the entire day. The dean of students knows that Ferris is up to something. I wish I could have missed school like that when I was in high school. I wasn’t really absent during school that much. Being absent just like would be such an adventure for me. There are a lot of life lessons, like his best friend Cameron. He has never stood up for himself, especially towards his father. I wish being absent would give me the direction that I need.